Over

I wish people would just get over things that happened along time ago.

You know who you are if you are reading this. There is no reason for you to be checking up on me or stalking me or whatever you are doing. There is nothing in my life now that has to do with you or anything about you. Also what business is it of yours to be reporting about me to anybody else. What I write on here is for me to vent about and I really dont care if you take offense to it. I write what I think. So just leave me alone and quit trying to follow what I do.

New

Well where do I start.

First my life has changed in the past 5 months.

I had a great house and a great fiance and a great puppy, but now all I have is the puppy now. Found out he was not that great, he was cheating and lying straight to my face about it. Also his whole family knew about it and didn't do a damn thing about it. I hope it all comes back to bite them in the ass. Then after a month of me being gone the fat bitch moves in with him. I know it shouldn't bother me, but to tell the truth it does. It was my house and he acts like I was never there. I don't know if I will be able to trust another male other than my father.

Then a couple weeks after moving home we find out my mom has cancer, but that is taken care of. Now it is doing things to prevent it.

Now I am back home. Alone again in a world with people that love me. I guess I am the one that people comes to to tell there problems to, but does any one ask how I am, NO. I go through periods where everything upsets me and times when nothing can bring me down.

I had a good job that I quit cus the hours so now I'm back to just school and staying home with mom and the dogs.

I'm glad school is starting back up. I can't wait to be able to finish and be on my own with my own life.

I just wish that my life would turn around and something great happens and I find some one that I can trust with my heart, but I don't know if there is such a person. Is it too much to wish for or not I would just like to know.

update

there has been alot happening for awhile and now i am going to get it out.

first is the roommate deal. to begin with one of my roommates is a two faced bitch and you cant trust her. the other is lazy and wont even answer the door if someone is knocking and everybody else is in other rooms. also they have both broke my futone and are pissed cus i wont let them sit on it. they get mad when i move MY tv to a different room, its not like we only have 3 tvs, and they had to move one of there tvs to watch there show. then my other roommate is a bitch but i love her for it.

the second is my wonderful boyfriend. there really isnt anything i can complain about him. the other day i went home with him and learned alot about farming and calveing and i would love to do that when i get out of school.

then there is my ex. he keeps showing up with my boyfriend and doesnt get the hints that no one wants him there.

then there is one of my new best friends. she is wonderful. she got me the team on the soccer team. with out her and my one roommate school would be boring.

then there are my old friends which i havent gotten to see in a long while. but i get to see them next weekend and i am happy.

life this year

this year review:
the beginning of this year i was having a blast but the ended just as quick as it started, just cus of a guy.

the end of school year was fun as hell, my grad party was the best part of it all.

the summer was fun many races and many parties at home.

then college started, i was scared at first but then i met a great guy (well i thought he was).

first term ended and so did my first love, but right now that is the best thing that could happen, cus now i have a great guy that treats me better.


next year plans:
forget about this year and all the drama.

get in and stay in shape.

not hold grudges.

dont care what people think and only do what i want to do.

dont change for other people.

live life to the fullest.

and most important HAVE FUN

this past week

this past week has been one of the worst ones for me yet. first it started out i was having problems with my heart. now i still dont know what is goin one with that. then i was having problems with the boy. now i still dont know what is goin on with that. so the start of this week was horrible and very confusing.

end of term

it is two weeks till term ends and my first class will start at 8 and not 7 anymore. this weekend i get to go to illinios for a tractor pull and that should be fun. this month has been very busy i hope that things change for this month. well class are goin good but last week i have missed a few classes because i was sick but now im gettin better and im making everything up. things with me and boyfriend have been alot better now that he has everything figured out about his ex. so that should be getting better.

dont know what to call this

For the past few weeks there has been alot going on in my life. I have going to school which has been boring then i have had alot to think about. right now i dont know what is the right thing to do i wish everything in life was just as easy as school. if any one has a suggestion of how to deal with everything let me know.