life this year

this year review:
the beginning of this year i was having a blast but the ended just as quick as it started, just cus of a guy.

the end of school year was fun as hell, my grad party was the best part of it all.

the summer was fun many races and many parties at home.

then college started, i was scared at first but then i met a great guy (well i thought he was).

first term ended and so did my first love, but right now that is the best thing that could happen, cus now i have a great guy that treats me better.


next year plans:
forget about this year and all the drama.

get in and stay in shape.

not hold grudges.

dont care what people think and only do what i want to do.

dont change for other people.

live life to the fullest.

and most important HAVE FUN

this past week

this past week has been one of the worst ones for me yet. first it started out i was having problems with my heart. now i still dont know what is goin one with that. then i was having problems with the boy. now i still dont know what is goin on with that. so the start of this week was horrible and very confusing.

end of term

it is two weeks till term ends and my first class will start at 8 and not 7 anymore. this weekend i get to go to illinios for a tractor pull and that should be fun. this month has been very busy i hope that things change for this month. well class are goin good but last week i have missed a few classes because i was sick but now im gettin better and im making everything up. things with me and boyfriend have been alot better now that he has everything figured out about his ex. so that should be getting better.

dont know what to call this

For the past few weeks there has been alot going on in my life. I have going to school which has been boring then i have had alot to think about. right now i dont know what is the right thing to do i wish everything in life was just as easy as school. if any one has a suggestion of how to deal with everything let me know.

confused

This is only the second week of school and I already am confused about parts of my life that i thought i had figured out. first i find someone that makes me the happiest i have been, but no one thinks we should be together because he just broke up with his girlfriend and thinks its to soon, but we should be the ones that make that decision not everybody else i just wish they could understand that. then second my mother wants me to wait for a guy that i was dating and when he went to college just quite talkin to me.

college

well i had my first real day of classes today and they were actually fun but im not sure how my terrorism class will be but i hope it will be fun. i thought i wasnt goin to like livin away from home but i am havin a blast but i do miss home alot. i went and saw a bunch of kids from school get hypnotized and it was the funniest thing in the world to watch, i suggest to anyone if u have a chance to see a show go.

new beginning

so i have less than one week left till im off to college and i cant wait. i will miss some parts of home more my family and a couple of friends that are still there. before this week i thought i would miss someone else, but i think i will be fine since he doesnt even act like i exist. is it too much to ask for a simple hi how are u once and a while, i didnt think so but i guess it is. i guess that is what i get for fallin for him since he has been known for doin that before.

last few weeks

the past few weeks have been by far the funnest weeks i have had in along time. i got to see some of my favorite drivers including kasey kahne again, i got to go to the races for 10 days, i got to go for a helicopter ride, and i got to hang out with one of my favorite friends, but i havnt got to see my best friend in awhile which sucks.

friends

people say that they would rather have a bunch of friends instead of one best friend, but me i would rather have one best friend. i know that sounds wierd but at least with one best friend i know i can count on someone to be there when i need them the most. best friends are forever but most friends are only there for a few years.

guys suck

I want to know why when you think you have someone great, something or someone happens and every thing just falls to shit. And when you ask them what is wrong they say nothing is wrong, but you know there is cus they quit talking to you. i just woudl like some one to tell me why most guys are asses and wont tell you when there is something wrong so we can try and fix it.